Friday, September 21, 2018

Building Up From Ground Zero

Everything must have a beginning.

I have fallen hard the last few years but I am starting to rebuild my life.  I am right where I want to be in many ways.

Financially, I have always struggled.  Over the past year that has changed.  I no longer worry about money.  My husband and I both have blossoming careers.  I "found" my career only about a year and a half ago.  I am making more money than I ever thought I would as a person without a college degree.  My husband started off at the bottom of his company and worked his way up.  We worked hard and it is finally paying off.

My home life is where everything seems to fall apart.

My house is always a mess.  Living with my husband and 2 sons isn't easy.  We both work full time and there isn't a lot of time in between to keep up with everything.  That needs to change.  The more chaos in my life, the more chaos in my mind.  Most of the time I just want to give up.  I know I might sound like a horrible person, but sometimes I imagine what it would be like to leave.  Believe me, I have no intentions of leaving, but the chaos is too much for me to handle sometimes.

Which leads me to the reason for this blog... weight loss.  I have struggled with my weight most of my life.  I can't remember many times where my weight wasn't an issue.  I have lost massive amounts of weight in the past but I always gain it back.

I do believe that my home life does have something to do with the fact that I am overweight.  I give up too often on myself.  The other problem I have is my love of food and having trouble limiting myself.

I started on Thursday, September 20th.  My starting weight is 262 lbs.

I will be following Weight Watchers freestyle.

I will be exercising 5 times a week, starting off slow.

I am determined to turn this around.  I will build myself up from ground zero.  I know I can do it.  I've done it before.

I don't know how often I will post but I will try my hardest.  I want to inspire you as well as myself.

I will post before pictures in the next day or two.

One day at a time.

That is all I can do and I hope you come along on the journey.  I need all the help I can get.

Until next time,
Pam


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