Friday, June 12, 2020

First Weigh In Using ITrackBites Conquer Cravings

My first weigh in was great.

I lost 8.2 pounds!

This weight loss plan is working for me.  The first few days I had headaches, I was grumpy, and I felt like eating every second of the day.  Then everything started getting easier.  Now I am on day 9 and I am not hungry all the time anymore.

I haven't started exercising yet but I'm hoping to start that sometime in the next week.

I started therapy today and it went well.  I learned some new ways to cope with my anxiety.  I also was able to talk about the loss of my friend who passed away in December.  I will continue with sessions every 2 weeks.  I am going to do this right.

After Monday, my work load should slow down so I will be posting more regularly.

Until next time,

Saturday, June 6, 2020

Starting Over - Starting Weight

I know I'm a couple of days late.  I did start on Thursday.  The first day was really rough.  I had an anxiety attack and had a massive headache.  I made it through the day successfully though.

My starting weight is 275 lbs again.

I have been feeling so bad lately and my anxiety has been so high.  I decided to make an appointment to see the therapist I've seen in the past.  I want to do this right.  I know without help I will keep falling into my bad habits.  This pandemic and the loss of my good friend has really worn me down.  I have a hard time handling anything right now.  Add to that... work has been extra stressful lately and parts of my body have been in pain.  It is just a recipe for failure.

I'm going to work on myself.

It has taken me a long time to admit I need help but here I am.  I'm going to get help.

Posts will be sporadic until I get over this stressful time at work.

I'm not giving up.

Until next time,

Wednesday, June 3, 2020


I haven't written in a while.

Yes, I fell off track.

As I was following the program, things starting coming up about my friends death.  I was crying constantly and I couldn't handle it.  I started to comfort myself with food again and the bad thoughts melted away.

I am going to start again tomorrow.  This time I am prepared for those bad thoughts and have ways to cope with them.

I am also not going to use Weight Watchers anymore.

I don't like the fact that I was starting to use sugar free and low fat alternatives for everything.  I need a diet that allows me to eat more real food.  Of course, I will still be eating processed foods but I'm going to try my best to eat better with less processed foods.  I didn't feel that way when I was doing Weight Watchers.  I want to feel good about what is going in my mouth.

I have decided to use ITrackBites which is similar to Weight Watchers but you can use programs from the past that Weight Watchers has done.  I also am fond of the 100 Days of Real Food books and blog.  I will be utilizing them to eat healthier.

So, I'll see you tomorrow with my new starting weight.  I think I gained back every pound I lost.

This is hard to write.  Its embarrassing but I know I can't give up.

Until next time,