I haven't written in a while.
Yes, I fell off track.
As I was following the program, things starting coming up about my friends death. I was crying constantly and I couldn't handle it. I started to comfort myself with food again and the bad thoughts melted away.
I am going to start again tomorrow. This time I am prepared for those bad thoughts and have ways to cope with them.
I am also not going to use Weight Watchers anymore.
I don't like the fact that I was starting to use sugar free and low fat alternatives for everything. I need a diet that allows me to eat more real food. Of course, I will still be eating processed foods but I'm going to try my best to eat better with less processed foods. I didn't feel that way when I was doing Weight Watchers. I want to feel good about what is going in my mouth.
I have decided to use ITrackBites which is similar to Weight Watchers but you can use programs from the past that Weight Watchers has done. I also am fond of the 100 Days of Real Food books and blog. I will be utilizing them to eat healthier.
So, I'll see you tomorrow with my new starting weight. I think I gained back every pound I lost.
This is hard to write. Its embarrassing but I know I can't give up.
Until next time,